Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Missing YOU...

Well, today being the last day before we go to Iowa and see our girls and I am so thankful! I miss Kailey and Lauryn so much! I miss their little voices, and the play times, I miss their laughter, I miss dad will you get up with me, I miss going outside with them and just that wonderful time together, I miss you girls so much, yet I am so glad you were able to go and spend some time with PaPa Paul and Grandma Cindy, I am so glad your loved by other people, I am so glad you are my daughters! I am reading this book by Dr. James Dobson, "Bringing up girls." My desire is to be a father that richly influences you both with Jesus, Love, Compassion, Forgiveness, but also health, and I want to instill in you both just how beautiful you are! I was convicted today by some of the TV shows I allow you to watch that are wrong just because I am seeing how they are trying to so influence my little girls into something that GOD never called them to! Kailey and Lauryn I am so blessed to be your daddy, and I love you both for a 100,000 reasons but most of all I love you just because your YOU! Keep smiling because Jesus and DAD love you very Much!!!

Friday, May 21, 2010


2 Timothy 2:1, "You then, my son, BE STRONG in the grace that is in Christ Jesus." Be Strong, well I confess today this word Be is standing in my way! BE, live it, not asking me to DO strong things, it is asking me or telling me to BE! Strong is not the problem, I believe Strength is in the eye of the beholder, but am I really strong, or is that just my smell! LOL! The bible makes it clear that we are to BE Strong, to live and breath, and act STRONG even in the face of adversity! This for me is one of the most difficult lessons I could even imagine trying to accomplish, BE STRONG! I want so bad to BE STRONG, yet I feel as though with the challenges I am facing that to BE Strong is one of the most difficult if the NOT the most difficult part of life I am facing today! The church is unattached in so many areas and the easy thing to do is just blame the messenger! Here it is again for me, BE STRONG, I want to BE Strong, for my family, I want to be strong for the church, I want to BE Strong for friends, I want to Be Strong for someone who needs that strong shoulder to lean on! BUT am I BEING STRONG am I standing STRONG, am I living daily STRONG, for Jesus? I want to go beyond try, I want to BE STRONG! Some people might say well your in a very difficult time, YES I am but all excuses aside, I WANT TO BE STRONG!!!

Thursday, May 20, 2010


Clearing your heart is such a relief even when your not in the wrong! To say I am sorry and to get the load off of your chest is really a blessing! God never intended for us to walk around life having this crazy feeling of can't amount to anything, hanging over our heads! SO often lately I have been feeling as though this is true! I know deep in my heart that this a lie from the enemy! Today I sent some letters out where I have been blamed on driving people out of the church, HOG WASH! But I truly shared my heart I am so Sorry if I came across this way! Some people feel like I am pushy. Today in the church people want there heart tickled but do not really want the word of GOD declared to them! The problem is this is complacency and complacency in the Church, the bride of Christ should not be! We are just okay with where we are with what we have and with what is going on as long as it helps me or encourages me some how! My prayer is more like, transform me, change me, offend me, and help me to get out of my shell and be what you want, loving people all the way, but this type of passion in areas of the church today is not welcome! Jesus help us! For we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed but of those who believe and are saved! Help me Jesus to stand for YOU!!!

Wednesday, May 19, 2010


Help me Jesus, I know and believe you are able, just say the word! Psalms 110 - "The word of God to my Lord: Sit alongside me here on my throne until I make your enemies a stool for your feet. You were forged a strong scepter by God of Zion; now rule, though surrounded by enemies! Your people will freely join you, resplendent in holy armor on the great day of your conquest, join you at the fresh break of day, join you with all the vigor of youth. God gave his word and he won't take it back: you're the permanent priest, the Melchizedek priest. The Lord stands true at your side, crushing kings in his terrible wrath, Bringing judgment on the nations, handling out convictions wholesale, crushing opposition across the wide earth. The King-Maker put his King on the throne; the True King rules with head held high!" WOW! When thinking about what an awesome GOD we serve it is very moving just to think that God our God loves us so much that even our enemies will be our footstool! God the Father does not tolerate enemy victory over His children, Who are the children of God? Who obeys, listens, trusts, bearing the Fruit of the Spirit, and who is living in daily devotion to the Living HOLY GOD! Jesus help me, I love and am in Need of Jesus!!!

Wednesday, May 12, 2010


Not sure just what I want to say, my heart is heavy today with much that needs to be accomplished and with the things that are going on in the church! Today I am going to really try and see if I can get a lot DONE! I woke up this morning after a very powerful thunder storms all NIGHT, Had some coffee, and had some devotions out of JOB, worked out for 30 min. and cleaned up and now in the office to make the most out of this day by the GRACE OF GOD! Today, I honestly feel BLA, I am quick with the girls to disciple yet my frustration is not with them! I feel as if LIFE is BLA, right now and I need Jesus and HIS POWER to help me to stand because, "I am not of those who shrink back and are destroyed but of those who believe and are saved." (Hebrews 10:39) I guess today I am just going to pour everything on the alter and allow Christ to work it out and to help me out! Jesus, Here I am today, I confess I feel BLA today and broken, along with angry! I lay my life at your feet, and I pray that you would please empower me to be your man, strengthen me to stand for you, give me HOPE in the circumstance I find myself and now give me the courage to face it and conquer that which stands against me! Give me your grace today and help me every step I take to trust in you, and to KNOW that I KNOW that you are in Charge! AMEN!!!

Tuesday, May 11, 2010


Be Imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved Children and live a life of LOVE, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to GOD. (Eph. 5:1-2)
We are called to be Christ Like in our actions, in our reactions, in our attitude in the way we love others! TOUGH!!! This is SO TOUGH, to love people who are so unlovable who don't seem to understand that loving the church and taking the time to invest in the lives of others truly works hand in hand in the life of the CHURCH! We the church are to be Copy Cats of Christ! We are to imitate Christ in every area of life so that the world around us is reached with the light of JESUS CHRIST! We (the church) are to truly take this sharp message and LIVE life to the MAX in Christ! Instead the church gets worked up about the color of the carpet, the money spent on a ministry projects, the lack of money, yet not digging any deeper! We the church if not careful find ourselves pointing our finger at each other instead of directly at the enemy! We who are to be imitating Jesus, need so passionately to do so with the hope of reaching the lost, loving the unlovable, and just being Jesus with skin on to somebody! STOP - PRAY - LIVE

Saturday, May 8, 2010

IT's My Birthday and I'll Cry if I Want TOO...

Well, Today has been a day to remember, I woke up this morning around 6:45 and then watched a little bit of TV with my two girls. We then all got cleaned up and dressed and took off for Country Kitchen, in which Kailey kept calling Country Chicken, LOL, went looking at Motorcycles, Trucks, Cars, and then to a HOME improvement store! There we bought some tomatoes, a sandbox, had lots of fun, then took off went home and set up sandbox, planted our garden, and enjoyed the day with my family to the MAX! We grilled Hamburgers, Peppers wrapped in bacon, we then ate it all! I believe that God created us to live life full of joy, passion, with purpose, and with lots of FUN! I am so glad that God did not create us to be boring and dull! LIFE is so short and we need to live it to the MAX every day because is precious and is worth the living! It was fun just to kick back and not worry and not frustrate over anything except where to put the sandbox! It was fun looking at my beautiful girls and my HOT wife knowing God really has blessed me far more than I can even put into words! I love my wife, she is one of a kind, she is not only beautiful but she is So much FUN! It is so awesome living life with your BEST FRIEND! Life is so Good, and I am so thankful!!!

Friday, May 7, 2010


Life hurts, and the truth is Life can right down stink at times! In James 1:2, it says "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds." What in the world? Come on, Allow the joy to just pour out of you when your going through the very OUCH of LIFE? This not only seems crazy but is very difficult to do, I find myself saying this should not be, But James just says let the Joy out when in the face of life it hurts! Don't punch back, don't fight back, don't even respond in a negative way, just consider it pure JOY! WOW, and ouch all in the same sentence. This not only hurts but has tremendous truth for the believer when JOY is coming out in the midst of the TRIAL of life! I believe more than ever in North America the Church of Jesus Christ has powerfully quenched the Holy Spirit in many ways! I believe we quench the Spirit when first of all we get more absorbed in our own importance instead of God himself. When we are not living out our purpose in full daylight and choose to get caught up in the inner church fights we miss out on the Joy in the midst of the Ouch! life hurts, and yes it can even stink, but what is my Response going to be to someones action that is not only wrong but hurtful! I pray that even in those moments JOY is pouring out of me so that my Creator will be pleased with ME! For I know my Redeemer lives!!!

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Standing - and Standing MORE!!!

Standing in Jesus is not an easy thing to do in the very face of opposition! Standing really isn't even standing if were not being opposed to what we are standing for! Jesus makes it very clear in His word that for the Believer standing in the authority of the Living God is where we are to be and IF we are not living there, He will not be pleased with us! I am praying that now more than ever GOD will radically help me to stand no matter what or who is standing against me! Living for Jesus is my hearts desire but for sure is not a cake walk, NO NO NO! The enemy is attacking me with every ounce of weapons that he can pull out of his arsenal! He is hitting me with anxiety, fear, doubt, depression and discouragement! In The name of Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior, my prayer is that you would help me to stand completely devoted to you! Help me not to stand for the praise of man or for anything! I want to be a man like JOB that after it was all over the BIBLE says that he came out pure as gold! That means a complete STANDING in the Living God, that means NO backing down, that means Living completely surrendered to Jesus no matter the Cost! GOD HELP ME TO STAND and to NEVER BACK DOWN!

Tuesday, May 4, 2010


I was created to Love God and to Love others! I was created for intimacy with the Living God! Living life with purpose is what life is all about. IN fact when you choose to live without purpose your choosing to live life in self instead of in Christ! Over the ministries of my life I can tell you that there is nothing like living it completely in the Shadow of the Living God! God really is for me and nothing that the enemy will do can separate me from my Heavenly Father. I want more than ever to be a person with great purpose and intention. I find myself so easily getting caught up in the applause of man in stead of the GLORY of my Father! I think we all struggle with wanting people to like us and for sure to love us and when that does not happen we, I find myself struggling as if for some reason I am living for the love and affection of People instead of for the Living God! Jesus help me! I am tired of living my life for the applause of man to find that no matter how hard I strive to make people happy they never are and that is because my purpose is not to make people happy and love and like me! My purpose is to love GOD, love people and to live my life all for the glory and honor of the KING of KINGS.

Monday, May 3, 2010


Life is so tough at times and the burden of building the very Kingdom of The Living God seems to weigh heavy on my heart today! Living for Jesus is simply not for the faint of heart and building the Kingdom is for sure NOT for the faint of heart! Building anything takes courage, takes a will, takes heart, takes passion, takes a longing, takes a desire, takes a heart throbbing desire for more than the status-quo! Building the Kingdom of Jesus Christ takes a faith that literally screams out to the enemy bring it on! When we choose to stand for Christ, when we choose to stand up for Christ and not be silent, we are quickly attacked by people who warm the seats in the church but who never make an attempt to further and deepen their walk with Jesus Christ so what they do is just throw out words of the enemy! Here it is - WAKE UP and GET A LIFE - JESUS IS LONGING TO WORK IN THE CHURCH TO REACH PEOPLE! SO today I give to Jesus my burdens my concerns and even my doubts! I know that Jesus is able to do more than I can even imagine! I need Him today to just lift me up! I have crossed over and made up my mind I am going to live for Jesus no matter the cost! I am a Jesus Freak! Living with life with purpose!!!